You tried your best and you failed miserably. The lesson is 'never try'. -Homer Simpson

I was surfing the net when this quote caught my eye. At first glance it seems like a usual funny quote, something the lazy Homer would say.... but then it also struck me how true this quote was. Sometimes we just rather not try than to do our best and end up disappointed.


The counter quote might be something like, its ok if you failed, at least you tried your best, but sometimes I feel, it hurts even more to fail because you have tried your best. If that really was your best effort, it just simply meant you were not good enough.

I know I hate it when people try to console my failures with " At least you have done your best". That was I can't even comfort myself with something like "I didn't score well in the exam because I didn't study la." It just seems to show that even my best efforts suck.

Somehow all this reminds me of college. We did try our best sometimes, doing assignments and all, slaving till the wee hours of the morning, but the outcome is still bad. Still a C or B laughing in the face of all our hard work and effort. Maybe it has affected me so that I rarely ever try my best at anything anymore... hehe.... well thats except in playing certain computer or P/S games la :p

I'm 22 for a moment....

Well after being sick for 1.5 weeks, I'm finally officially 22. Everyone goes like, oh you are still young, go chase your dreams, do whatever you want while you have the chance....I wish I was your age, yada yada.....

I maybe only be 22, but I feel old and jaded already. The world is changing, and not really in a good way either. I wonder how will things be like when I'm 40. Even now people are changing their gender until you cant tell who was originally what,little kids are killing their parents during their tantrums and and what not. Kids watch cartoons that I cringe at. Those with eyeballs being pulled out and tongues getting sawn off. Yikes, I really wonder what kind of people will they grow up to be. I'm starting to fear for my life, haha....

Kind of nostalgic to receive calls and sms from people that were once part of my daily life, but that I have not met for a long time. Its nice to remember the good times we had together, but sad that it probably will never happen again. I tend to keep thinking of "what was" instead of "what is". Must learn to appreciate what I have now instead of looking back.

I find myself still waiting for something to happen, something that will take me away from the mundaneness of daily life, something that will prod me to pack my bags and go seek my dreams. In the end I'm sure it is we ourselves who will make things happen. Its not much use just sitting and waiting. Oh well......there is always the hope that 1 million dollars will drop on my head someday, haha...yea right, dream on la....

Ok, enough of that, back to work ! :p

The though provoking jelly bean

Today my friend gave me a few jelly beans from Australia. As I chewed on that bean on the way to work, a thought struck me. This bean I'm currently chomping was in Australia, it was in places that I have never set foot in before..and now it has travelled all the way to Malaysia to get eaten by me. As I rolled the unfortunately bean in my mouth, savouring the sweet taste, I pondered on the bean's fate. Then I started pondering on my own fate. Obviously my life would have been different if I had gone to a different school, joined a different intake at college.... Where would I be now if I had taken a different course or if my family had moved to Rawang as we originally planned to?

My dad told me to take another course. What will happen if I take it? What will happen if i don't? Hmm, life is like those picture books that I liked to read when I was a kid. Those that go like,. To go down this Path turn to page 5, to stay there and wait turn to page 10. Eventually only certian paths lead to a happy ending.

I'm Jasmine, 22 years old, Analyst Programmer. Where does my future lie?

Guys and girls as friends

THe topic early this morning on radio was... can guys and girls be friends. Of course some callers said yes, some said no. But the best one was the caller who said : " IF a girl says her best friends is a guy, then tis fine. If a guy says his best friend is a girl, there is something going on !" Haha, come to think of it, its true in a way. I mean if a guy already has a gf, and if he says his best friend is a girl, we would tend to feel that its wierd. Maybe its because guys are less able to "control" themselves and remain loyal? lol